MATURE

He always complained that I'm really childish, annoying and cry-baby.
I'm still finding hard to be more mature. I need a definition to be a  mature. He always said to solve everything by yourself. Well, he told me to said everything even a story, my problem or I face right now. The question is, why every time I want tell him, his not in the mood :( dammit! I also need someone to rely on, but please if you need my help just say it to me.

I know it!

I knew it! I never to be the one for him :(
Oops! I'm not his beloved anyway, I realized that every relationship takes time, but I knew it I'm not important enough.

The thing is, if you try to ask me for more understanding about you, then you should do it in return also!

Even it was a small problems for you, but it will hurt woman's heart! *Listen BOYS!!!*

It's my fault

Because I'm so immature and spoiled girl, I will be my fault. I make him angry, and I don't want make everything getting chaos. I just standing there and let him say anything if it will make him better :) I realized, I'm always make him in trouble and make him more busy..never care about him, I admitted it was my fault.
Since I was child, as a youngest daughter in family, every time I try, it always failed and make them didn't trust me. Trust and chance. Well, what I need just chance to try so I will not failed and make same mistake :)

I need place to write and tell everything in my mind!

I need more to learn in this life.

I'm just a little part of this world. I'm inexperience and I shame with myself. I really have no clue at with the reality in the world.
I so immature and spoiled girl, I try to change to become more mature and don't such a kids.
Everything need process, I willing have the experience it.
He say , sometimes I don't pay attention with anything, but I am paying attention.
I lave lot of lacking, and still need more to fix it.